Category: What’s On My Mind

I’m in Indonesia

Dear Diary,

Wow, didn’t mean to leave you hanging there… But after my last post, I was extended in my Thailand project. And it was all kinds of crazy crisis mode. We had to work on Christmas Eve, Christmas Day, New Year’s Eve and New Year’s Day!

By January 2016, I was flying out to Indonesia for my next project…

I missed my annual family Christmas get together. Booooo But hubby was with me so all was well.

We had a tiny Christmas eve celebration where he cooked some macaroni chicken soup. (My favorite!)

Alright, I promise to post my past travels for 2014-2016… I know I really owe you a lot.




Things To Do

Dear Diary,

This project is almost done and I should be able to go back home sometime in October 2015.  This is my list of things to do when I get home.

  1. Apply for singing lessons
  2. Set up a studio section in the house
  3. Buy an electric drumset
  4. Buy a piano

Those are the priority ones at least. Hehehe



No Music, No Life

Dear Diary,

Hi.  I have not forgotten you.  I have been busy.  Ok, maybe more like lazy.  I’m sorry.  Please forgive me.  I’m back at least.  I can update you on what’s happened so far in my life.

I’m still here in Thailand.  Got extended until September.  Unless something changes in between and may need to be sent home sooner.

Hubby is still back home at the Philippines, but I go home to visit 1 weekend every month.  Last April, he was here the whole month to visit.

I thought I would be back home by End of June, so my last trip home, I brought home my mic and guitar… I thought life would be boring on the weekends now because all I had was my iPad to make music with.  It’s not the same when you press buttons to get the chords…

Then last month, after going through my facebook feeds, I saw some videos of Jessie J having a duet with other people via an application called Smule.

I remember back in the Glee days, I used to have an app called Glee! Smule.  I used to sing and record songs from Glee using that app.  Then forgot about it for some time.

Then these floating videos reminded me of it.  Unfortunately, the Glee app was already gone, only the Smule main App still existed, I had 2 recordings but those sucked. haha 2 years ago I did not sing that well…

Granted, I don’t really sing extraordinarily.  Not in any way that would get me in The Voice audition. But I’m in tune. And I have some talent with harmonizing.

I think reactivating my account in Smule, is making me a better singer though. Singing with strangers is fun.

If you ever feel the need to drop by and have a listen here’s a link:

Love lots,


Dear Diary,

My aunt died last Monday.  Last time I saw her was on New Year’s day for our yearly family reunion.  She was healthy.  She was active.  She was dancing and singing.  No sign of anything amiss.

January 29, I receive a message from my mom, telling me that my aunt was in the ICU because of a rare disease called Guillain-Barre Syndrome.  I went straight to google to see what I could find.

1 to 2 cases out of 100,000 per year.

The treatment was expensive.  Her immediate family was able to start her on the daily treatment.  But it was too late.  After a week in ICU, my aunt passed away.

My prayers go out to her family.  To my dad, who was really close to her.  I, unfortunately, was not.  It was only through our yearly family reunion that I got to talk to her, to hear her stories and to tell her briefly how I have been.

Life is unpredictable.  No one ever knows when it’s their time.  Someone can live their life forever scared of all the possible horror that they might experience, or live like there’s no tomorrow, but in the end it’s still the same story.

Life is unpredictable.  And yet it is beautiful.  It defines you.  The life you have is based on how you have acted on the unpredictability of it.  On what you have done.

But this life is not all that there is.  There is something beyond life that is more beautiful.  More unpredictable, because we do not know.  We may know enough to want it.  But we’ll never know until we get there.  That is the beauty of the afterlife.  The mystery.

Sometimes I wonder about people who don’t believe in the afterlife.  Do they think that this is all there is?  What becomes the meaning of life for them?  Thinking that after this life, it’s the end.  Like a game over with no replays.  Do they enjoy their life more, knowing that everything ends and then nothing.

That is very sad.  I don’t think I could enjoy my life thinking that there is nothing beyond the years that I have on this earth.  I would keep asking myself everyday, what is the purpose of all this…

Much worse, in my opinion, is believing in everything or believing in something vague.

So, dear reader, if you have reached this last part of the post, I’m here to tell you what my purpose is in life.  It’s to tell you about Christ Jesus, who died for our sins.  All you have to do is accept Him as your personal Savior.  It’s that easy.  Yet it’s the hardest thing to do, because it involves putting your trust in Him and it means that you will change your ways because you now have accepted Him into your heart.

Life is unpredictable.  Don’t let it be too late.

AvA Martini

Dear Diary,

I have a new hobby… Ever since I saw this video:

I have become addicted to Electronic Dance Music (EDM). This is pretty ironic for someone who does not like dancing…

It started out with me buying EDM songs in itunes that I thought were nice… Then watching videos of people making EDM. And consistent with my personality of a frustrated musician, I just had to try it.


I don’t have any hardware or computer softwares yet. I need a good digital audio workstation (computer software for editing audio). I need a synthesizer (looking for AKAI MPK Mini MII whichis compatible with iPad). And I need lots of drum samples.

As I have none of the above yet, I settled for what I did have. Garageband app in my iPhone. So here it is… My first EDM.

Garageband App for iOS.


Dear Diary,

I’m at the airport again. Leaving behind my hubby, my family, my relatives and my house. Off to the foreign country, that I work in.

I have been doing this since 2009… I should be used to it, right? Wrong…

I can’t turn off the feeling of loneliness washing over me… Especially after the holidays.

People back home dread going back to work after the long holiday. Now imagine going back to work in a far away place…

Back in 2009, my very first foreign country to work in was Singapore. I went home for the first time after 6 months. I had 4 days in the Philippines… As you can guess, 4 days are not enough. But it was better than not being able to go home at all for years.

It was my first time of leaving people behind after coming home from overseas, so I couldn’t hold back my tears…

Now, my tears are controllable as long as I distract myself. But the loneliness is still there.

So here I am, at a cafe, waiting to board my plane. Heading back to a foreign country. Alone… And not knowing when my next visit back here will be.



Dear Diary,

Sometimes I just wish I can stand up from my desk in the office and start singing on the top of my lungs…

I’ve seen videos of people dancing like nobody’s looking… Maybe I should start a trend. Or there might be a trend already and I should join the cause.


– Singing Green Day’s Time of Your Life on our wedding day.

Short Story: I See You

I see you in the corner of my eye, looking at at me.
I see you smile across the room, our eyes meet.
I see you standing in the corner, silent and steady.
I see you.
But nobody else does.

Reblogged from my wedding website:  May 12, 2012 07:51 AM

14 days… @_@

Today, Anthony and I attended my college friend, Eunice’s, wedding.  🙂  Such a wonderful event. The bride was so beautiful and the gown was really elegant!  Loved the garden reception decors. Got to see my blocmates again.  Gave out my invitations to them as well.  Lots of other blocmates were not able to make it, but hopefully they’ll be able to come to my wedding… 🙂

So at this very moment my biggest problem is losing weight! Haha. I have finally proven that I eat when I’m stressed… Hopefully 2 weeks is enough time to reach my target! X(

Photobooth was fun! Hehe Buti na lang uso na ang photobooth ngayon. I’ll scan and post it here.


See you next time… If I still have time to post hahahah!


Ava Martini

Rebloged from my wedding website:  Apr 20, 2012 08:18 PM

Lately, ARKARNA’s lyrics keep popping into my head…”So little time, so much to do…”

Yes, 36 days to go!

Invitations came last week and it’s oh so beautiful… can’t wait to distribute it. 🙂  I shall post scanned copies here later.

Finished discussing the layout and details of the Ceremony and the Reception with Raquel, our Account Manager from Paradiso Terrestre.

Completed Food Tasting for the menu on our Buffet.  Wish we could do it again. and again…  Oh my gosh, the FOOD.  IS.  SOOOO. GOOOD.

Bridesmaids and Flower girls dresses are done! THEY ARE SO BEAUTIFUL. 🙂  GREEN AND BLACK.  For the moment, just use your imaginations hehe. I’ll post pix after the wedding.

The Souvenirs are done… We decided to buy something online and have it delivered.  I wanted to design the tags and put them on the souvenirs myself.  (NOTE TO SELF: Next time buy one that’s ready made…)  But I was able to finish them with the help of my mother (who cut the tags and put them on some of the souvenirs.)

Most of everything else that’s important just needs some follow up.  The only thing I think would need some manpower now, would be the ceremony program which we are going to do manually….  @_@

But all this will be so worth it… =_=



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